January 2013
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Listener - Wooden Heart
We’re all born to broken people on their most honest day of living and since that first breath; We’ll need grace that we’ve never given I’ve been haunted by standard red devils and white ghosts and it’s not only when these eyes are closed these lies are ropes that I tie down in my stomach, but they hold this ship together tossed like leaves in this weather and my...
November 2012
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“My scars are a testament to the love and the relationship that I had for and...”
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“Chemistry, I’ve heard some people have it.
An attraction that can’t be...”
– Dexter
October 2012
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apocalypse of heaven
I found myself walking around an unfamiliar place. I was aware that this was not life, that somehow I reached whatever came next. My idea of heaven. My elevated state of consciousness. It was completely new to me. It was an empty, concrete environment.
It was the blank canvas of my heart and mind.
Everyone I walked by I have seen at some point in my life.
I recognized them.
I knew them.
With...
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The Gestalt Prayer:
I do my thing and you do your thing. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, And you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it’s beautiful. If not, it can’t be helped.
October 2011
6 posts
“I’ve been afraid of changing ‘cause I built my life around you...”
– Stevie Nicks - Landslide
We both sang along to the radio; a song I cannot remember but the words you spoke are ones I will never forget.
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“We have done so much with so little for so long. We are now qualified to do...”
– — Mother Teresa
My senior quote from 2005 that I am still very fond of.
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“They mean to show that there is an inappropriate and correctable disconnect...”
– By Douglas Rushkoff, Special to CNN
September 2011
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“What it feels like to be loved.
Someone who truly loves you will be kind,...”
– Thought Catalog
i look forward to the day where you fade out like the rest.
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Watchhappiest of birthdays to my very best friend today.
“a child was stung by wasps, and then declared war on birds”
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August 2011
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“God, what the hell is happening over here? You leave and all of a sudden its...”
the only way to fly
before cell phone and portable technological life devices, a plane ride was a means of opening a world of communication with someone you would most likely never hear from again. to have one of the greatest conversations of your lifetime with a person, who you know and will somewhat purposely will never reenter your life, in today’s age of headphones, excel spreadsheets and kindles, makes it...
i never wanted a saturday to be at my feet more in my life.
i must catch that early morning flight.
echoes, silence, patience and grace
all of these moments i’ll never replace
no fear in my heart, absence of faith
all i want is to be home
And kind and courteous is a life I’ve heard But it’s nice to say that we played in the dirt my dear Cause here we are, Here we are Here we are We’re still here What a beautiful mess this is It’s like taking a guess when the only answer is yes Through timeless words, and priceless pictures We’ll fly like birds, not of this earth And times they turn, and hearts...
tear down the house
my mom returned from buffalo with a brochure on fences.
she showed us the fence they picked out to go around the pool during her most recent trip to visit her boyfriend of 5 months. now my sisters are arguing the reasons why they are not allowed to have TVs in their new rooms. their new rooms—8 hours away from this house in New Jersey, which will be sold and 8 hours from Chicago. upon...
running through quicksand with a heartbeat the world could feel
searching for road maps, signs and anything slightly familiar
i don’t know where we go from here
“But most of our familiarity was hard-earned, strong and resilient familiarity, dredged up from mystery, difference, conflict and sometimes even from anger and despair. As a result, we often had plenty of mystery in our relationship. We had to create most of our familiarity, but it was the kind of familiarity we could depend on to pull us back together.”
July 2011
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“We’re grown-ups now. It’s our turn to decide what that means.”
– Randall Munroe
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and at once i knew i was not magnificent...
i may not have the coolest life. i may not have the most up-to-date chic wardrobe. i may not be completely organized. i may not come from money. i may want instant gratification a little too much. i may not have a stable nuclear family. i may not think i’m in the wrong. i may not have my life entirely together. i may not always know the right thing to do. i may not have crazy-awesome...
““it’s you, it’s you, it’s all for you
everything I do
i...”
– lyrics: Lana Del Rey | Video Games
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“I wondered if that was how forgiveness budded; not with the fanfare of epiphany,...”
– The Kite Runner, Khaled Hosseini
June 2011
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all flights lead to austin
Best day I’ve had in a long time :)
bestest of friends. wearing my new favorite shirt. free ice cream. visited with my favorite bossmanfriend. yummy dinners and long walks with my daily dose of red headed sanity. taking advantage of a huge southwest airlines sale and seeing a long loved best friend in a city i have yet to travel. i painted my nails blue. long talks with my mother who...
step one.
I learned something extremely significant about myself this morning, and it started when i stabbed myself in the finger with cosmetic scissors to have my “Ah-ha!” moment.
At first its like, “I’m not like that-no way-that’s not me at all.”
Dead wrong, buddy. It’s way overdue I get myself off this high horse.
It’s something I’ve been for years...
late night punctuations
A period at the end of that sentence.
An exclamation point for this one!
”..the vow that we made was that you will never hear that I did something after the fact..” -WS
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for my Advanced Developmental Psychology class i have to write a case study…on myself
for as silly of an assignment, a cop-out, as i believe it to be—i don’t think i have ever had a more difficult time on a “school project”
the more i write the more anxiety i have
i am understanding why i am the way i am, why i do the things i do and it is such a strange feeling. a...
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May 2011
11 posts
smooth.
Shaving my legs while listening to Ella Fitzgerald, Frank Sinatra, Ray Charles and Billie Holiday sure makes me feel like a woman.
Sure bunch of classy people they are.
inaudible
it’s a terrible sound when nobody is listening.
11.
Can we turn up the volume again?
The quiet strikes me with anxiety.
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I’ve fallen out of favor and I’ve...