Not many people experience the opportunity to step back into their past.
Even with unfortunate circumstances leading you to this destination, it allows a person to step into an alternate universe for a moment;
the future of your past 2 years after it has moved on without you.
It is an interesting experience. Time almost stands still as you drift around the room, recognizing the faces that filled your everyday and studying those who are new.
Tears and laughs over memories and situational awkwardness decorate a room celebrating the life of someone who was special to so many. You are grabbed and held and lifted and squeezed like you were the prodigal son. You are the reason for more tears but at least these are happy ones.
This place, with fresh coats of paint, new ceilings and a spare key in the vintage coke machine will always feel like home to you. Those who grabbed you, placing kisses on your cheek, thank you for being there, fill your heart until it is about to explode. You are grateful to experience the positive impact you made to these people who have made such an impact on you. Forever changed, forever loved.
Even though you can’t take the past with you because it will distract from your present leading you towards your future. You can acknowledge all the past has done for you, appreciate all the gifts it has presented to you, love it for all it has been to you and wish it the very best as it continues on, without you.